Liar

I am struggling. 

I am sorry. 

I made things worse

for myself 

for not following 

through with you.

I think about you

everyday.

My heart does ache.

I am married 

to my pain

and don't know how to 

move forward. 

I was going to leave Tuesday.

But when you called me a Liar

I felt I should not come.

I wanted to get there.

It is my fault for not

having the courage to leave.

I don't know what to say.

I'm Sorry

I care.

I find joy 

equinox.

I roll the decades 

aground.

I'm sorry.

I believe 

I'd find love.

And sweeter things

to have and hold

hands.

Along the water 

sands and reeds.   

This too must pass.